FAITH

I don't know when this was start. tears fall over like sea and sky. daddy if watch this will this hurt,  can you close the window? 

it's not like I don't care, but I'll pray so be calm. I open the door,  and I can hear that gun . I don't know which brother will get shoot this time.

this is killing us softly, but not sure what they get from this hunt. they are too much,  you said human is best creatures,  but why your act more sh*t than the Lion King? 

God,  I don't wanna see this, I can doing nothing,  just praying and crying 

I know this is just like butterflies metamorphosis

Actually  we will have happy ending anyway 

but before that,  can I get seat at NASA plane? 

so I can go to Mars,  wish that place  more peace than here.

earth which they said the best place to living and staying

I feel ashamed . even  tigers not like this,  they are taking care their colony, don't call you human if you still act like that! 

I'm so sorry for the sky,  they should watch this musical,  I bet they are also crying, begging to God for stop this falling. but God have another plan,  let's pray and be sure, confidently live, there's happy ending final.

keep in faith, you are the best more than anything else, you are strong more than they think. let them do anything they want, the ones who will laugh at the end are us anyway.

FIRST

I’m officially missing you. You who used to smile all the time. No more did that like you. I’m officially missing you. I still remember the smell of your hair gel that you used. When we walked and talked. I just wish I can meet with the old of me, so I can meet with the old of you. Not us now. When you already hold her hand. When I don’t even curious what are you doing these day.

I felt so much regret, when I throw your gift because the small thing that you did. I felt so sorry, even now. Maybe you will smile when you read this, but I’m sure you will ever find this. I hear you are fine. And I know that you will always be fine. Good man will meet with good girl, I wish that true. So I will feel safe here.

Big hug for your girl, tell her please take care of you^^. Even when I don’t ask, I know for sure she will. Hey, I’m officially missing you. The way you look at me, with those eyes, who never lies. Every single time I used to see you smile. Those smile who never fade away.

How are you these day? Do you ever know that I miss you? I’m so sad that I don’t have your picture anymore, I used to have your formal elementary school picture. That was precious for me. And you know well that. I wish I can have that again.

Those man, I wish I wasn’t meet them, just someone like you, but no one there like you. I hope you know that, so Your girl will be pleased. Please take care my first, they said first love is always beautiful, I will agree for that. Thank you, I feel lucky that my first love was you. You know for sure that when we passed each other, I had Butterflies in my belly. Be Happy! Please take care of your girl, so someone also will take care of me soon!^^wink……

Nothing, I don’t even know why I miss you now, Dear someone who wants to be called RAUL then. lol 

Friday, September 01, 2017.